1288 Miles

yesterday, he 16th, i had school early in the morning, and i woke up to the most beautiful boy in the world. (1) and then i got in the shower and texted him all the way to school until i had school and that amazing beautiful boy fell asleep( 2). then when i got out of school, that wonderful amazing beautiful boy and i texted until i had to go to work, and i called him on my way to work and we talked until it started and tat just made my entire day at work so much better. ( 3) (4). after work, i was in such a great mood, and so i called this great, wonderful, amazing, beautiful boy and told him all about my day, and how he was making it so much better. i told him about how i was getting sassy with the customers, and this funny great, wonderful, amazing, beautiful boy made me laugh all the way home, back to work ( i forgot my key) and all the way back home again (5) (6). then i did my homework, and this smart, funny, great, wonderful, amazing beautiful boy forgot that he had to go to school, it’s okay, because he’s not really missing anything, and he stayed home to talk to me. (7). when we got on skype we watched baby mama, and i fell asleep half way in the middle of it, and he didn’t even care. (8) because this incredible, smart, funny, great, wonderful, amazing, beautiful boy knows i love him and he loves me(9). so he told me it was okay, and i woke up to him the next morning laying next to me, and everything was perfect. (10) 

as i totally just said about this boy, i woke up to him. on the 17th, and everything was perfect. he was so helpful today, and pretty much the same thing happened today that happened yesterday, except i didn’t have work , instead i visited my grandma in the hospital, and this boy was so helpful to me. because i was so worried, about her, and my grandpa, that this lovely, encouraging, and clever made me so happy, when i was worred now we’re skyping and i’ll probably fall asleep again, and hell do homework and i’ll wake up to him again tomorrow. :) so excited. :) i love waking up next to him, because i know i’ll be doing it for the rest of my life. :) il ove my dudds

hehehehe he’s singing to me right now, and it’s so cute<3 so i gotta go, we’re going to watch the house bunny <3 

i love this lovely, encouraging, clever, incredible, smart, funny, great, wonderful, amazing, beautiful boy, and i’m so happy to call him my boyfriend, my fiance, and one day my husband. <3 

-Matthew

hello tumblr,

sorry for not posting in a while.
me and matthew have pretty much forgotten about reminding eachother to post on this blog, but we’re gonna start doing it again. I like letting people know about how my day goes with Matthew and how we get through things. Its a great help.

So Matthew’s birthday was last week. He finally turned 17. We skyped,  and watched Mulan. I also showed Matthew what I was going to get him for his birthday. Well, eventually get him for his birthday, and he fell inlove with it. It was a Snorelax Sweater. His favourite Pokemon:)

Since then everything has been your usual days.
Wake up, and talk to eachother. School/Work. Come home and talk to eachother all night, then do it all over again<3 
I love just being able to talk to my boy all day, and all night.
Its the best feeling ever knowing that we’ve stuck with eachother this long, and that there is nothing in this world that is going to tear us apart:)

Its like less then a week till our 5 month anniversary:)
I’m so excited!! I’m already making plans for it in my head:D 

Anywho, I love my boyfriend more then words to describe<3

-Brandon. 

so a lot has happened recently with brandon and i, and i’m not going to type a big long thing that stated day from day. but i am going to tell you what brandon and i have been doing lately. lately, brandon and i have been watching movies every night. :) i dubbed it the epic movie month may. yeah i know it’s pretty much an epic of epic epicness… no big deal. i love it. it’s so comferting to snuggle up with my booboo and tell him how much i love him and laugh at the same things that he’s laughing at and everything. and i love falling asleep next to him. 

the other day i had to give my boy some tough love and tell him that i love him but he needs to go deal with his problems. and everything. it wasn’t that big of a deal. and becuase he’s been trying so hard. he has a job interview on my birthday. and clearly he’s going to get it( knock on wood) because it’s my birthday, and everything good happeneds on my birthday, clearly… i was born. that was the day i emerged from my mother to grace this land with my beauty. 

but enough about me. lets get back to me and brandon. lately. i think that he doesn’t do anything, but than i relised that he can’t because you need money to do something so whenever i bring it up i feel bad. that’s why i’m not going to talk about it, because i know i’ll feel feel bad if i do. 

tonight, when brandon and i got on skype. i surprised him by playing his favorite song that reminds him of us… perfect two by auburn.( or whatever) it made him cry. and it was so cute. even though i can’t sing, i know that he loved it because he loves me. and he cried. and it was so perfect. <3 i love my boy. and i love that he loves me. he told me that i was the first person to sing to him. and i know i’ll be the last. 

like the song goes. you’re that apple to my pie, you the straw to my berry, you’re the smoke to my high, and you’re the one i want to mary. and i plan on wedding this boy, if it kills me. i swear, i will <3 

i love you brandon. you and me forever<3

Since myself and Matthew didn’t get to skype sleepover, we just fell asleep on the phone. When we got up, Matthew went and got ready for school, and I got ready for Court. He went to school, and I went to get the bus downtown. Since I didn’t talk to him much throught school, I had to do court alone. I got an absolute discharge, so I don’t have a permanent record. I just have to pay $50, then im good to go.
Then I went home, and took a nap until Matthew got home from school. We texted, and talked to eachother on the phone until he had to work. By then, I was getting ready to go to Class. It was my first day at College, and I did nothing, other then text Matthew every now and again when he’d text me. Other then that, nada. But we talked to eachother when he got off work, and we’ve been on skype for the last 2 1/2 hours, and we’re loving ever minute. 
He isnt allowed to have the computer again tonight, so we’re just gonna fall asleep on the phone again. I just want to feel close to him, and I will do whatever it takes to do that <3 
I love my boyfriend more then anything in the world.

Ps, I was talking to my friend Melissa about Matthew, and I love that she loves us. She thinks we’re perfect, and that our relationship is strong.
I also think this. <3

-Brandon. 

april 30th, 

on that day brandon and i had a sleep over on the phone i’m pretty sure. and i love those sleepovers because i can still feel like he’s there, and if i need him in teh middle of the night he’s already there for me<3 and i love that. and i get to fall asleep next to him too and wake up to him every morning. it’s one of the best things about  being with brandon, i love waking up to him just as much as he loves seeing me in the morning. ughh, i love that. i honestly think about all the other nights in the future when i mary this boy, and i get to say good night to him everynight and good morning to him every morning. i would love to see him eating cereal every morning, ughhh, i can’t wait. and to fix his tie on his way to work, and he would fix my suspenders <3 uhh. i just can’t wait. 

then i had school but i threw up half way through school, and brandon had to go to a court appointment, so i just layed in bed, played pokemon and waited till he got home, and skyped with him as soon as he got home, and he took care of me.<3 he told me to go make toast and get tylonol, and he honestly can make me feel better just by talking to me, he makes me laugh, and smile, and forget about my pain. <3 he lights up my world like noone else. and then we skyped for hours after that, to a point that we didn’t have anything else to talk about. :) and even though that’s a bit boring, it’s really not, because i get spend it with my boy. and that always gets me happy. i don’t care if we say anything or not, because i know that i’m with him, and that’s what makes me happy. 

then today, i was busy all day, ( may 1st) and i noticed that brandon and i have been a bit clingy to eachother, and i know that it’s okay. because i like clingy, but i didn’t want us to be that couple, you know what i mean? i love spending time with him, and i want to spend a lot of it with him. i really do. but i don’t want to be on skype all the time, and not have anything to talk about all the time. i want to talk about stuff with my boy, because i love hearing what he’s doing. so i told brandon that today, and he understood, it’s not him that’s boring, it’s the fact that neither of us has anything to say. so he made some plans, and tomorrow and the days after we’re both busy in the day. so that he doesn’t have to sit around and wait for me while i’m at school all day. 

i do love that he loves because i love him. and i love that he wants to spend time with me. <3 because i want to too. 

tomorrow brandon has court in the morning, and he’s a bit nervous, so we’re going to have a sleep over because i want him to forget about it for a little, and go in with a positive attitude after a good nights sleep<3 i also tried to get his mind off of it by watching a funny movie. one of my favorites. we watched history of the world, part one. very funny. i really hoped brandon would like it, and i’m really happy that he did:) 

he has school tomorrow too, and i have work, so we won’t talk much, but i know we’ll have a lot to say on skype tomorrow:) i’ll miss him tomorrow, so i’m going to go all bad ass, like did today at work, and text him during school :) no big deal. well, text him as much as i can. no big deal. he also has a work interview, i have work… big day:) i hope everything goes well:) 

i love you boobear, you’re my world. 

and my life. 

and i’m going to try harder baby, i really am. <3 

-Matthew<3

April 27th.

Friday wasn’t the best day for me and Matthew. We we;re having some issues with a stalker ex of his, and I was worried about it. I thought I was going to lose him to this kid, although I know better then that, cause I know that Matthew would never leave me. I know that i’ll be his forever. It’s just how I see it. 
We we’re supposed to have Date Night, but it didn’t turn out, cause we both got upset because of the situation, but it passed because we both just spilled all of our feelings and everything was perfect again.
Matthew said to me that since I came around that he’s opened up to a point where I make him the most comfortable. How I can make him feel safe. That’s all I want in my life. I want to keep Matthew safe from everything. What kind of boyfriend would I be if I didn’t do that?

April 28th.

Yesterday, Matthew and myself just talked on the phone pretty much all morning<3 He just laid in bed and talked to me. One of the reasons he makes me feel like i’m the only boy in the world.  He then had to go to work, and I was really just thinking about my life and how it was going to be in the future. How I start school on the 3rd, and how my life is actually going to start. It’s the first step. Its the first step to my future with my boy. That also crossed my mind.
I was thinking about our wedding, and how it was going to be. I honestly had it all planned out in my head, and it made me so happy to think about it.
I know Matthew wanted to get married on a boat, and I wanted to get married underneath the stars. So I started looking for boats that would be able to satisfy both mine and Matthew’s wish for our wedding.
& I found the perfect boat.
 

I honestly fell in love with it. I thought it was absolutely perfect.
I was thinking about how we would get married underneath the stars, and how our friends and family would be there with us.  I imagined that the boat would be decorated in black and white drapes, and how Matthew would come down from the top, and I would be standing there with the minister, waiting for him to walk down the aisle. I would just be looking at him, and I wouldnt even pay attention to anyone else that was there, because in that moment I would know that i’m the luckiest boy in the world, cause i’d be marrying Matthew.
I even thought about my vows and what I would say to babe.
It went a little like this “Matthew Francis Salinger, in this exact moment I am complete. You’ve stuck with me through the thick and thin, and that you never gave up on me. I fought for you, and I was never going to let you slip away from me. You’re my other half. You’re my bestfriend. You’re my perfect boy. 
The way that you can just smile and light up my world. How you can say I love you and make everything better. How you hold me at night and keep me safe. I wouldnt give up anything like that all the money in the world. You’re my greatest achievement. You’re my one true love.”
I thought about it alot, and I honestly cannot wait to spend the rest of my life with this boy. I think its exactly what I deserve. And I know for a fact that I deserve the best, and as far as i’m concerned. I got better then my best<3

Lastnight was also Date Night, unofficially anyways.
We watched Superstar, and Matthew and myself nearly died of laughter. It’s the most hilarious movie i’ve seen in a long time<3 I love that I get to experience the best things with my boyfriend.  

April 29th.

Where my internet was complete shit lastnight, and would keep cutting in and out, we didnt have a sleepover, but we just fell asleep on the phone. We talked on the phone for the longest time today. I love talking to him, he can instantly make me feel out of this world. Its the greatest feeling. 
But lately, i’ve been becoming a little bit clingy. I would cry everytime he would have to go. It’s cause where im still worried that i’ll lose him. Its just subconsciously in the back of my head. But I know he wont. So I dont have to worry. 
I’ve also been feeling like as each day that goes by, im falling for Matthew harder then before. I feel like today, I love him SO much more then I did yesterday. I honestly dont know what I would do without this boy in my life.
I will fight for his love everyday, until I die.

“Don’t know if I could ever be Without you 

‘Cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we’ll both see That we’re all we need
Cause you’re the apple to my pie 
You’re the straw to my berry
You’re the smoke to my high 

And you’re the one I wanna marry” 

Matthew, you complete me.
You’re my one true love.
I love you So much<3

-Brandon 

24th. 

that was so long ago„ i had off that day, and so brandon had to go to school in the morning, i think i t was his first day. :- my baby so cute starting college. hehe. and  and i was so proud of him. and i had off school because in pennsylvainia it was election day, and i was so into the idea of not having school. so i supported my boo through school even though it was ust registration. but still he’s starting. and then i got up out of bed around 2 and skyped with brandon all afternon until i had work, and so he waited for me to get off, and he had to clean his room, so i told him if he didn’t clean his room we couldn’t get dirty, and to support that idea even more. on my break at work i sent him new dirty photos lol… that got him motivated. and… his room is clean.. hehe. such a good motivator. just saying. 

on the twenty fith. 

i had schooland election day was over. and i think that it was an okay day, because brandon had work n the morning the same time i had work, we didn’t talk much that day, but then we made up for it that night by watching brandon and i’s favorite movies eating out.  then we cuddled all night and had another sleep over.  we’ve been having a lot of them lately. and we’re having alot nother one again tonight.

and tonight hte 26th. and brandon and i have been having issues with this stawlker ex boyfriend of mine. i think he’s crazy and brandon agrees. it was stiupid, and we’re over it now, because it gets brandon and i worked up about it when we talk about it. so i’m done talking about it…. it’s just that brandon and i have a stwlker that’s in love with me.  no big deal… fucking creep. <3 and nothing we were going to watch a movie , but because we both downloaded the movie it took wayyyyy too long, and so we just desided to save it for date night<3 

( this has been like date week and i love i. sleep overs and movies everynight this week so far < i loveee it. <3 

i always love time spent with my boo. 

you’re my one and only boo. i love you more than anything in the world. i can promise you that<3

Haiiiii.

So im just gonna talk about the last few days, cause I havent posted. But it wasnt my fault. I swear..

Anywho, April 22nd would be Sunday, and that was mine and Matthews 4 Months! We didnt end up doing anything special cause I had to work that night, and Matthew tried to stay up for me but he couldnt stay up. Either way, im happy that hes here with me for another month, and that there are many more ahead.

April 23rd. This day wasnt very eventful either, but Matthew couldnt help but fall asleep on me lastnight during Harry Potter. He was out all day with his friends, and he had school so I wasnt mad. Plus we were going to have a skype sleepover lastnight, but his laptop died. Oh well.

April 24th. So this morning I woke up to babe calling me, and we just fell asleep on the phone. I was supposed to get up at 10 to start getting ready cause I had an appointment at CONA regarding my ABE acceptance. I woke up at like 10 to 12, and I rushed to get ready and I went to CNA at 1230. I was talking to babe the whole way there, and most of the way home. Now were just on skype, and were both about to go shower and talk some more before he has to get ready for work. But tonight is gonna be our 4 month celebrations, no matter how hard we try its gonna fall through this time. 

I love my boyfriend :)

-Brandon 

today started great. i woke up and texted brandon, and he actually got up and texted me back right away, unlike normal when he just sleeps until 11, my time,.. that would be 1230 his, i think. 

then he fell asleep and we didn’t talk much today, i texted him when i got out of school… some short texts back. then after school i didn’t feel my phone on the way home, and i was cleaning my car with my dad, and so i didn’t really get back to him right away. and i felt really bad. i feel like i didn’t talk to him much today, and i hate that. 

then we skyped for a little after he was done with his shower, and i went out with my friends to celebrate the holiday with my friends at 8. and the entire time, brandon texted me short. the entire time. he stated that he had a headache and i understand, but the fact of the matter is that he texted me short. and he wasn’t even doing anything but sitting at home jamming. and i felt so alone even though i was with my friends, i wanted to talk to him, and he didn’t text me. but very short. i hated it. days like this don’t help my fear. i thought it was gone. and i’m really trying to get over it, but it’s just days where we don’t talk much that really make me scared of a drift. because i miss him all day. and i just really hate it. 

to be honest. i didn’t even smoke, because i was so worried about brandon. i just wanted him to talk to me. i missed him so much. and when texted like “ok” and “yeah boo” i get worried and so all day i was asking him if something was wrong, because i feel like something is wrong. i hate not talking. 

maybe i should just go to bed tonight, and postpone date night. because i came home even though my friends are still out to see him. and be with him. and i still feel like somethings wrong. i do believe him when he says that there’s nothing, but it’s kind of hard when he says that nothings wrong, but then acts like something is. 

i don’t know, maybe it’s just me worrying… 

i really just don’t know. 

i feel my tears are on there marks. 

i feel so bad… and nothing happened. 

i love brandon so much. and i know he’s going to hate his post.

i’m sorry baby. 

i love you.

i just want you to be happy

-Matthew

ps. i do believe you

Hellooooooo.

Sorry for not posting lastnight. Me and Matthew we’re having a little spat, but its all good, and i’d rather not talk about it. 

Now, we’re talking about today.
I woke up this morning and Matthew was asking me if I wanted to skype cause he was staying home from school. So we skyped until he went in at lunch. I slept, ofcourse.
Matt went out to dinner with his parents and I went out with my friend Kelsey.
And now we’re on skype, and we’re gonna watch Eating Out 5: The Open Weekend:)<3

I love this boy. Just sayin’.

-Brandon 

so i woke up today from a good morning text from my baby and it made my day, it always makes my day when he texts me good morning because it actually comes from him, and it shows that he still thinks about me first thing in the morning. that’s how i now he really cares, because after all this time. it’s the little things that show that he still loves me, and i love him so much<3 

but he was asleep on a car ride, and i went to school. and so we didn’t really talk for the first part of the day, and then i had work right after school, i miss him so much today, and after school he was texting me short, and i asked him why he said no reason. and then i thought he was mad at me, and he told me no. and then finally he fell asleep waiting for me to respond, and i thought he was ignoring me, so during the time that we did actually talk today, i was worried/upset. but it’s okay though, because i know that he still loves me, he promised. but when we talked still didn’t make me feel the best today,

when i got home from work, i wanted to talk to him, but he got a shower, and so i didn’t talk to him much after work, but then we got on skype and watched eating out 3, because we’re finished witht the first two and they rockedddd<3 

and yeah, our day was pretty boring, and we didn’t talk much… i didn’t like that. but i guess it showed how strong out love is. i’m still lingering over the fear of a drift that brandon mentioned a few days ago… i really hope it doesn’t happen.

to be completly honest, i hated not talking to him today, i know it wasn’t his fault, because i was the busy one. but you know because we didn’t talk that much, i kinda hated today. i missed him. when we don’t talk it makes me feel like i’m boring. and i don’t want to become so boring that we drift. oh well. i just have to remember that we’re promised, and everything’s going to be okay, 

i’m done here. 

i love you boo<3 

-Matthew. 

Hellurrr.

Well, today has been a basic day.
Matthew had school, and I had work, so we really didnt get to talk much until he got out at 4pm and we’ve been talking ever since. #boyfriendswag.

Also, i’ve been listening to his iPod for the last 3 days. I really want to just put my music on it because theres alot of stuff that I dont like on it, but then theres alot that I do. Plus its his iPod, and I dont want to mess with it, ya know?
But, I love listening to it cause it just reminds me of him, and makes me feel close cause where its his playlist that he would listen to everyday. :) #love.

The only interesting thing that has happened to me today would be that I discovered how to turn my PC into a Mac. As Matthew would say, it made me “fancy.” I agree.

okay, so last night brandon’s post made me cry in the middle of it, it was so sweet,<3 i loved it. i cried that it took me a while to read it, because i couldn’t see through my tears. but anyway, brandon, and i have been doing great, in my opinion ever since my baby left me for now, but it’s not a good bye, i just want to address that right now. it’s an ” i’ll see you later”. but last night brandon and i watched eating out 2, together, because brandon has me hooked on these movies. if you don’t know what they’re about, it’s pretty much like soft core porn but with a lot of dialog and you don’t really see much . they’re awesome. and funny. 

the other night, my friend molly told me that i was a liar, and that i had a problem with it, or something like that. and so i would just like to address to molly really fast right now, that i know that i lie sometimes, but i don’t acctually believe them, i may retell them, but the only reason i tell lies to people, is because they’re people i don’t care about, and if i tell them the lie, it’s because the truth is my business, and i may not want them to know the entire story. so to molly, i would just like to apologize, i know you were just looking out for me.  and i’ll work on it. i promise. i will. i love you. but when i told brandon about it, he helped me get through it. he’s a good boyfriend. 

but yeah, this morning my baby had to get up at 630 , to go to work, so we had a skype sleepover last night, and i woke up with him, and sent him off to work, told him i loved him, but then i fell back to sleep. it made me think about when we’re married, and we’ll acctually have to get up at the same time and get ready for work together, i would fix his tie, and he would make sure i didn’t look stupid. he’d do my hair, and i’d tell him that he needed to shave. we would and leave for work, <3 ughh perfect. 

i’m so happy that brandon and i became promised when he was down here, my worries about him aren’t as bad anymore now that i know that we’re promised<3 whenever i miss his kisses, i kiss my ring because i remember that he kissed it his last day he was down here, and i know that his kiss is still on it.

in all honesty, i miss him here, i miss his smell, and his touch, and the way he held me, you can’t get that over skype, but when we’re together, it makes it all worth it. and i know that i’m going to marry this boy. i promise you that internet and anyone that follows me. brandon f. a. hill will be my husband one day. 

okay, well that’s all for now world of interwebs. 

summary, i miss my baby, eating out is a movie to watch, brandon and i will be married.

the end. <3

-Matthew.